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By Austin Bukenya and Susan Kiguli
We are unafraid to admit that when the news of Ngugi's passing came to us, we experienced a roller coaster of emotions. We flipped from the gratitude of knowing that we have had the privilege of claiming Ngugi as our own in many different ways, and of being part and parcel of his legacy as part of his Makerere community to a sense that the likes of Ngugi do not come in hordes and filling his shoes is a dream or fantasy.
In the moment of wanting to honour Ngugi in a way that would fit with his an unassuming and down to earth nature, we reached for his Makerere memoir: Birth of a Dream Weaver: A Writer’s Awakening. We revisited this memoir in awe, clinging to every word as if it were a poem, for two most important, almost sacred reasons to us: It is about Makerere from Ngugi. We need not explain what this means to literary scholars at Makerere University or to anyone associated with Makerere.
The second reason we went back to this memoir and lingered on words and moments in it is because of the powerful images presented to recreate a feeling, to put forward a message in a way that the reader is made to reflect actively on these experiences, to relive moments with Ngugi, to figure him being formed by the place and in his very self effacing manner adding to the tone and magic or if you like the instrumental colour of the Makerere of Ngugi’s time.
We revisited this memoir to hear him talk again about his timeless attachment to us and to this place he loved so dearly, and in a way, reassure ourselves that Ngugi had made sure that his bond to Makerere was engraved forever in his words about it. It has been our way of remembering and of sitting again and again with Ngugi at a place he treasured so much. It is our way of focusing on Ngugi and Makerere, knowing well that so many people are living again his sojourns in other physical and fictitious worlds.
His memories of Makerere also raise the major issues that Ngugi was so passionate about from his early years as an upcoming writer and public intellectual. While at Makerere, he was fully immersed in issues of injustice, racism, ills of colonialism and the precursor signs of what would go wrong with products of colonialism, such as Amin in power. These issues engaged Ngugi’s mind at the time he was at Makerere and, in our view, continue to be very much part of Ngugi beyond Makerere and beyond the physical realm.
One of the things we have always found most fascinating about Ngugi’s memoir about Makerere is the tapestry of experiences within and outside Makerere, this approach of using memories of Makerere or Makerere as a setting to reflect on larger issues such as the methods and attitudes of colonialism: for example, the denial of a stage to Ngugi’s play This Wound in my Heart because “They don’t think a British officer can do that” forms the pattern of the very methods of oppression that Ngugi fought against all his life and which his work will continue to fight.
Revisiting Ngugi’s Makerere memoir has felt like holding a grand prize in our hands. Ngugi weaves an embroidery of images, mini-narratives, and sounds that connect Makerere to the larger happenings of the late 50s and early 60s. The memoir is about Makerere, but it never lets you forget that it is about a Kenyan student at Makerere University.
This is indeed a tale by a master weaver who creates cross stitches of words and ideas that clearly show how Ngugi’s existence at Makerere links to his other relationships to Kenya and to the world. There are gems of Ngugi’s life at Makerere, for example, the story of Ngugi’s meeting with Langston Hughes at Makerere, of their getting stuck in Wandegeya because perhaps this place echoed familiar places in Langston Hughes’s mind.
Ngugi always spoke of Makerere as a place with lots of opportunities. He always softly asserted that he was a student seeking opportunities at this place, so we wish all our students here at Makerere will read Ngugi’s inspirational work about a place we probably take for granted, whose history we even gloss over sometimes.
Ngugi, in his typical style, illuminated some dark places in our understanding of Makerere University, and that is why we have chosen to remember him by focusing on his words about the place that saw him produce his first two novels, his journalistic work and his early plays and poems.
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